I Never Could Have Imagined Just How Lonely Motherhood Would Be.

I never could have imagined just how lonely motherhood would be.
Don’t get me wrong; I love being a mother and being with my son fills my heart to contentment, but I’m lonely.
He is after all only 7 months old and there is just a social aspect of life that babies can’t fill and moms shouldnt be made to feel guilty because they want a friend.
I feel guilty that  I feel lonely because being a mother is something that I deeply love and always yearned to be. I should want to be with my baby 24/7 without any need for a break, right?
But NO! I’m a mother but I am also a friend, daughter and co worker. I am a person. People need people.
I wouldnt wish for my son to talk to only me, daily, for the rest of his life so why is it bad if I want to talk to somebody besides my young child, who can’t even talk.
If somebody calls or messages, its nine out of ten times, to see how my son is or if somebody can  see him. That adds to my loneliness and I know they only mean well , so again I feel guilt for this jealousy I have for there inquiries.
People dont ask how I am or what I’m doing anymore.
When people do want to see him; they dont want to see me, they don’t stop in, they don’t call to make plans to go to the park or enjoy some time with both of us, they want me to come over and sit on their couch like a statue while they oggle and smother my baby with affections.
I feel lonely, but I also feel invisible sometimes.
I want to feel only happiness that my son has these people who love him so dearly.
I don’t want to feel this way. I dont want to feel like my only option to connect with adults is to go back to work. I want to want to be here with my baby all day everyday. But is it so wrong that I want a break from this loneliness aswell?
I never could have imagined just how lonely motherhood would be.